Thursday, July 5, 2012

Another day

"We quickly find there are no words to describe the experience of losing a child. For those who have not lost a child, no explanation will do. For those who have, no explanation is necessary"
I couldn't agree more!!!. It takes so much to explain  a person that never lost a child your feelings and the more I try the more I think they don't get it. It is a hole inside of your is a tear that comes to your eyes just by looking up at the sky. I know that are many like me outside in the world...but I honestly feel like the only one sometimes.
When I'm on the street and look at women with their newborns my world stops...I just look at them and want to tell them: Gosh, you don't know how lucky you are! It is true that I have another girl, but my family will never be complete.
How wonderful is to see a mother playing with all her kids...2,3,4 whatever the number is. How wonderful is to know that they don't know the pain of losing a baby...I would love to make  all the mothers on earth to know how lucky they are when they hug and kiss all their children at night.
I always kiss one on bed and send a kiss to heaven...It is not the way that it was supposed to be...but I must accept it. I would love to say that is God's will...but I don't think He is that cruel. I prefer to say that  thanks to my baby, I'm stronger, I'm more kind and I show more love to the people around me.
I kiss my two years old everytime that I can, I hug her and I let her know how much I love her. I like looking at her bright eyes when Im telling her that she is my princess, my angel from above. I like brushing her hair, washing her and teaching her new things, but most of all, I like teaching her to be happy...after all, no matter what...we came to this earth to be happy :).